A life TOO ordinary..

Randomness

2011-12-01T22:22:00.003+08:00

It's another semester, another cycle in the office. Nothing much has changed really. I feel equally unsure, equally lacking, equally inadequate.

Have you had curry today?

2011-08-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

I did! So did many of my friends! It's funny how curry has serendiptously become a national dish overnight. Much as I would like to think I am open to immigrants, I begin to realise that I have become rather xenophobic of late. It makes me guilty when I think of my Chinese friends who are very nice and kind people.

A tribute to Amy

2011-07-24T21:32:00.002+08:00

It's such a pity, isn't it? Such a talent, such a troubled soul.I was waiting for your next album, I loved Frank and Back to Black. And I paid for them. And I was hoping to pay for your new album soon.Rest In Peace Amy. May you get rest finally.

Sometimes, ignorance can be a bliss

2011-06-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

I used to wonder when I was younger how it felt like to lose one's mind; what it takes for someone to abandon all logic, rationality, self-consciousness and enter into a totally detached state of mind (if there is one to start with). I used to ponder and concluded that it is a deliberate, conscious attempt to escape reality.Perhaps it is. But it is definitely not conscious.I think about the dark

New Game

2011-06-20T21:51:00.002+08:00

I am totally obssessed with the new game Donutto introduced!!In other news, Sunday at the Charity Fun Day was fun but tiring. My thigh muscles are aching with all the flipping that went on.

One more try..

2011-06-16T22:36:00.001+08:00

I've decided to hang on in there a little and give it one final try. There is inevitable dilemma. Chances are I may never have the same opportunity to meet such nice people again. Chances are I will be kicking myself 2 months down the road. Oh well. Chances are..

Tug-of-war

2011-06-07T21:58:00.002+08:00

I have been assessing my current situation quite a bit and I am not sure if I like the way things are now. There is just something not quite right which I just can't seem to pin point. Perhaps there is simply no value on both sides which is why I have been feeling so empty. But I do hope to give it another go, just that the morale just dimishes faster that I could imagine.

The hiatus

2011-06-03T23:38:00.002+08:00

I haven't been able to blog for the longest time because everything seem, or rather, IS mundane and there isn't much to talk about. Some people in the office are the coolest and a couple are simply a pain(in the A). I am still quite debating whether it's time I want out. There are things pulling me on both sides. I think the pain can be quite a big issue. Exam was quite a bitch and my hopes to

The bugging issues

2011-03-30T21:53:00.005+08:00

I am not too comfortable with the amounts of rants on how the country is and should be run lately. I am not exactly pro- status quo, but neither am I against them. Does that make me a doormat? I firmly believe that unless I can make a constructive contribution, I would rather not keep my mouth shut and let people who actually bother to try (or at least pretending to try) do their work. I feel

Point of Stagnancy

2011-03-26T23:15:00.003+08:00

It happens every semester, as if nothing is moving, but everything else is piling up. And I start to wonder why can't I be smarter, healthier, wealthier, luckier, happier? I should be wiser than that. I should be grateful. In other news, the Silliest is in town and had the bubble T (gong cha). And popcorn. And the best cousin. Hur hur. Stefanie Sun's new album is cool. I am at track 4, so far so

These trying times..

2011-03-02T22:17:00.001+08:00

It has been the worst 2 weeks of my working life and it is not over yet. I am really tired..

Have I been good?

2010-12-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

It's been a year of gains and losses. A year of growing up. A year of realisation that life has not and never will be the fairytale I had assumed to be. A year of angst, a year of help, a year of desperation, a year of disappointments.. It has also been a year of love, a year of support, a year of true friendship.Yes, Someone is watching over, but just not as frequent as I hoped for. I probably

I survived..

2010-12-17T22:21:00.005+08:00

The week has been crazy and traumatizing that I wonder how I managed to survive the 14 hour workday week and a closed book research module altogether. In retrospect, the ordeal made everyone closer in a way and what doesn't break you makes you stronger, I think.I am just so, so, so, so happy that the week is finally over that I am suddenly at loss (though I know there are many many many many

Life and the choices we choose to make..

2010-12-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

"There's always a choice" and so that's what they say. When the going gets tough, we can choose to face it or simply walk away. There will always be a choice, but no one says it's going to be easy.I have been deliberating for the past couple of months on throwing the white flag and walk away. It is a tough decision and I am still undecided. Yes, I have a choice, in fact, many tough choices. It

Looking for..

2010-11-15T22:17:00.007+08:00

METhe me who was confident, ignorant I was, but never self-doubtedThe me who was carefree, broke as I was, but never worried The me who was collected, weary as I was, but was never dauntedHave you seen her lately?

Being vigilant..

2010-11-10T15:51:00.002+08:00

XXX says:Eh ur neighbourhood got slashin lehPatrick Sputnik Starr. swimnsandals.com spree says:yeah loXXX says:U better dun anyhow stare at pple horSo dangerousPatrick Sputnik Starr. swimnsandals.com spree says:those siao ggii naaXXX says:Ya manzAnyhow slash onePatrick Sputnik Starr. swimnsandals.com spree says:must be copycats from the dt east casethey never say wat race oneden i noe who not to

The office

2010-10-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's theme is GREEN. The folks have crazy fetish for making every 'event', however insignificant, an excuse for not-so-fancy dress party in the office. Which somehow makes thinsg slightly easier in the morning, since I only have to hunt down the most suitable attire for the theme, and that must have saved millions of brain cells.I can't still quite decide on my love-hate relationship with

School Of The A...

2010-10-20T15:14:00.002+08:00

I sent an email to the new Singapore Arts school to clarify some issues with regard to some stuffs I am/ have to handle at work in the pretty near future. The guy was not very nice, in fact he was rather rude. I hope he is not an acad staff. If he is, it makes me wonder about supposedly the Humility, Integrity, People- centred and Passion (HIP) values the school seems to propagate.HIP friend, HIP

If I promise to be good..

2010-10-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

could you please return us all back to yesterday?

I'l' say thousands and thousands and thousands of little prayers for you..

2010-10-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

and thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands more if that's what it takes..I'm not going anywhere, just call me when you need me ya? Just like how you were always there for me, I can do the same too!

Positive thinking

2010-10-05T23:52:00.004+08:00

SO what if ......... happen/ do not happen right? On a separate note. Do you realise how scary it is to be browsing photos of some friends to realise how unfamiliar the face has become? How foolishly you have slipped away from their lives? HOw distant it seems the memories?"I've lost some friends through death, others through the sheer inability to cross the street."I've made the 1st step to '

iPissed

2010-10-03T22:09:00.004+08:00

I officially hate YOG. The unthinkable has happened. *^%E&&^()*^%&^!!!!I thought I was pissed when I had to pay an extra 70 cents for LRT system's screw up. This wins hands down man.*(&^*%^$^#$$*&^*&(*&*$#@#!!!!!

2 more days..

2010-09-26T20:56:00.001+08:00

Would you remember your promise? Or do I just have to admit to my expensive mistake..

A year (or so) on...

2010-09-18T22:08:00.003+08:00

I fell, I hurt, I still do..

iWait

2010-09-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

There's been a rather urgent need to get a new phone as the current one has served me well and has been sending signals on its intention to retire. So it's the battle between the Andriod and the iPhone, the geek and the glam, the libertarian or the authoritarian (ok that's just me with media theories overload). I am pretty much undecided because each time I will be convinced that the other is

On 'couple' tours..

2010-09-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

XX needs retail therapy says:we can still share a bed leh.. i just need to in e middle can liao..Patrick Sputnik Starr wants the perfect phone. Glam vs Geek says:WAHLAUI can pay to sleep in a room myself

Daily musings

2010-08-27T15:01:00.000+08:00

How to get to Dempsey...Hammerhead says:maybe we can tell her to get off the bus after she see tree #59

Carnivoreyy

2010-08-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

Patrick Sputnik Starr. TGIF- 5/6 says:oh oki feel dis-satisfied from lunchlz says:wad u eatPatrick Sputnik Starr. TGIF- 5/6 says:rice with sweet n sour fish, curry vege and toufu'lz says:not meaty enuf?Patrick Sputnik Starr. TGIF- 5/6 says:yahwhahhaahu noe me!lz says:err ya u meat eaterPatrick Sputnik Starr. TGIF- 5/6 says:hur hur

Lately..

2010-07-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

I've been busy at work learning new things everydayI've been feeling very fatI've been feeling apprehensive about going back to schoolI've been troubled by a not-so-distant pastI've been feeling very poorI've been feeling frustrated with peopleI've been spending too much and lately, it's time to stop.

The pursuit of Happyness

2010-06-17T20:50:00.007+08:00

Before I start, I am not sure if I should even try to pen down these thoughts and if I eventually do, I am not sure if I should even publish it. Cos' I might not even know what I am talking about but I guess I just need to comment a lil' about what kind of conversations I've been having lately.It's been over a month since I moved to 'Destination Next". Over the 5 weeks or so and 2 pay cheques

The irony of things..

2010-05-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

It's one of those I-am-exhausted-but-I-can't-sleep nights. I planned to sleep at 9 but it's almost 11 already. OH well.Work's been busy with tonnes and tonnes of new things flooding my desk and email box everyday (yes but I am only facebooking while waiting for things to load or resting), leaving me with no choice but not to leave on the dot. And I am NOT complaining. In fact, I am enjoying every

The past week..

2010-05-15T21:13:00.002+08:00

The past week has been nothing short of adventures and shocks. I have embarked on a new journey which has been by far unusual but not unpleasant. Still looking forward to more to come!Ah Boy was in town with TW on Wednesday and I brought them to one of my favourite lair for a nice Hainanese- Russian meal. It was good and I am so glad they enjoyed the meal thoroughly like me. Perhaps I would bring

Have passion, be involved, challenge yourself..

2010-05-03T22:47:00.002+08:00

2009 was not a good year. While it is impossible to erase, I suppose the best I could do is to make 2010 a much better one. And so I decided that 2010 is a year of change. A year I find something I am truly passionate about, to be involved in something meaningful and challenge myself to reach greater heights. Things are looking good so far. I've accomplished 2 challenges; by leaving my comfort

42 months in 15 (small) bags...

2010-04-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

I have officially ended my 42 months (and 1 week) relationship with the office and will be moving on to the unknown. Packing brought back many memories and sometimes made me pause to think how much I will miss this relationship.Looking back, I am really grateful for all the people I met along the way (crazy ones not included). Despite my horrendous temper, wicked sense of humour, negative

Adult 101 Lesson 1: Taxes

2010-04-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

Erin says:i feel like quitting my job without a jobbut seeing my income tax earning, i think i should look for a job first before quittingPatrick Sputnik Starr. ZooWeMaMaa! says:hahahhaErin says:yeah or else next year i'd still be low-income groupPatrick Sputnik Starr. ZooWeMaMaa! says:whahahahahahahaanot so bad la

Happy Easter!

2010-04-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

Eat, drink and be merry!

Decisions are meant to be made..

2010-03-31T08:49:00.000+08:00

I hope it's the right one.

Random

2010-03-20T12:49:00.002+08:00

Kings of Convenience and Placebo had their gigs on the red dot last week or so. I am extremely sad. No prize for guessing why.Diary of a wimpy kid is out! I am going to watch Greg and Rowley!Crocs sale on 24th to 26th. It's been a year. You prolly forgot. I wish I could.

You're beautiful..

2010-03-07T19:29:00.002+08:00

because you are not afraid to be who you are..because you are not afraid to fight for what you want..because you are not afraid to speak your mind..because you are strong, and you are inspirational.I had a great time at Kumar's show last night. Thank you for showing strength, courage and positivity that have gone missing for a while.Yep, it was hell of a show! I definitely look forward to the

Colour coded pills...

2010-03-03T12:20:00.005+08:00

Patrick Starr. says:i think u secretly wan my penUnis: hai photoshop... can't figure it says:no la u secretly want to give the pen to me ritePatrick Starr. says:pls lo.. why wud i wna to give u my favouritest pen in the world?!u r delusionalu shud seek helpUnis: hai photoshop... can't figure it says:i am not delusional dun call me delusionalPatrick Starr. says:u forgot your pills again right..

Happy End of Chinese New Year!

2010-03-01T08:24:00.003+08:00

It's officially the end of Chinese New Year and I am celebrating it with an all black outfit today. And it's also time to open all the angbaos and stash them under the bed. It is also time to remove the 2 office 'kam (chinese orange)' from the workdesk and bring them home to eat (if applicable). Have a great chinese year ahead!

米修米修。。。

2010-02-26T22:43:00.008+08:00

I hate the voices I have to hear, the people I have to face, the things I have to tolerate every fucking day. I am very jaded. The PMS is making me pretty angry and emotional while the last chemo is making me sick all the time. And it's the same shitty cycle.If you know me well enough, you would know I do not like to talk about the seriously unpleasant stuffs of my life because I think we all

Ashes to ashes..

2010-02-17T22:03:00.004+08:00

It's ash Wednesday once again and while in mass, I thought of a friend who might be interested in detoxing again.Of course that is not the main point of Lent. It's about being a better person I guess and be reminded that we are fundamentally ashes. There are many thoughts in my head but it is simply not me to preach about my religion. I am just glad that I am where I am today and grateful for the

Just shut up!

2010-02-17T13:35:00.006+08:00

How do you tell someone nicely not to interrupt your conversations and colonize them, in whatever context. It is VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY irritating and I don't care what are your intentions, it just irks me to no end!!!!! Me is very unhappy.SHUT UP you blabbermouth!!! Go and get some basic etiquette education you.. you.. bumpkin!!!!*phew*

How do you..

2010-02-16T22:43:00.004+08:00

find the gentlest way to tell someone that you do not like to be judged and thinks that double standards kills your friendship?tell someone you love her, knowing that you should have done so many, many years ago?not hurt yourself by recollecting something that is harmful to the heart?not assume that the liaison between 2 someones was not a betrayal?It's a holiday with loads of emotions. The joy

虎年行大运!

2010-02-14T21:47:00.001+08:00

祝大家心想事成，天天幸福，健康快乐!

Why I resisted Facebook..

2010-02-10T22:18:00.005+08:00

Most friends would know that for the longest of time I had resisted Facebook. In fact, I resisted Facebook when it even landed in Singapore, when Jeryl was in US.Knowing it's another Friendster, and probably worse (and I am absolutely right about it), I vowed never to sign up for Facebook. Until unbimbo signed up for me during the dark age and I succumbed to 'peer pressure'.So the daily routine

Lu Luuuuu~~ I love youuuuuu

2010-02-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

Patrick Starr. says:i m so determined to do my forms tmrluluuu says:i'll blame the fengshui of my seat n my untidy desk n environemnt to make me scatter brainhahahahahahahahahahahaPatrick Starr. says:hahahahluluuu says:u delete facebook frm ur pc u will dou wan me to help udeletePatrick Starr. says:wahahhahahhahatmr we will delet each other'sluluu says:dowani delete ur one can liaoDuring lunch...

算命师的话。。。

2010-02-04T12:20:00.007+08:00

A couple of years ago when I was still in uni, we went to a fortune teller who set up a stall at the Bazaar. And something I vaguely remember:算命师: 你跟小孩子没有缘朋友：她很喜欢小孩子的算命师：那她可能是不会有自己的孩子 I don't know what triggered this memory, perhaps is the wedding I attended last Saturday... And Darian whom I baby-sat for a while at the wedding...Congratulations to Kevin and Gwyn, it was a beautiful

珠光宝气

2010-02-03T17:41:00.000+08:00

Men..

2010-02-02T10:14:00.000+08:00

Patrick Starr. says:start work oredy?Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:yea .. since yestand i start work at 6.30am nowPatrick Starr. says:how come so early? den u goback at 4.30 issit?how is mrs tan?Garry: eatslpworkeatslpworkeatslpwork says:no la.. but do less OT lori wake up with her maher timingMrs Tan is as usual, whining about her jobhahaPatrick Starr. says:hahhaahmr tan pls work

Lunchtime war

2010-02-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

A typical day having lunch at Mac...Mikey Mike (MM): pls lor, want to wear don't keep pulling (referring to a girl wearing a tube top)Uncle Ong (UO): I cannot understand why girls like to wear low cut top then keep pulling. ShootingEllie(SE): Maybe they don't notice is that low?UO: When they go out see the mirror they don't notice meh?SE: I don't check the mirror when I go outUO: That's cos' u

Wings or no wings?

2010-01-29T15:08:00.003+08:00

Patrick Starr. says:all 1 formUnis: wah lao everything due on 1st Feb.. says:updating the website now so can be launched on sunPatrick Starr. says:hahahaok thanks huh...i give you a sofy pad with wingshahahhahaUnis: wah lao everything due on 1st Feb.. says:wah lao cheapo i rather get an apple ipad without wingsPatrick Starr. says:dat one u can get.. with your own moolahi can oni afford sofy with

Donut says the darnest things...

2010-01-26T08:53:00.002+08:00

I love my Donut, she never fails to brighten my day...Erin says:collide with another ab**and they caused jamTMDcost me $22 cab fareusually only around $10Patrick Starr. says:WAH..that is alot!!!Erin says:yea lah!so angrythen since stuck in the jam, me and driver got nothing to doso we exchanged hp ringtonePatrick Starr. says:whahahhahahhahahahahahhaahu r a very unique personhe n'er giv u discount

Pandora Box

2010-01-22T16:50:00.003+08:00

What do you do with pictures you can't bear to throw..and can't bear to look at anymore?I was looking for my Melbs photos which I remember loading on to the PC yesterday (and they went missing and I guess I have to load it on laptop over the weekend, if there's time and if I remember) and stumbled across some not-so-distant photos that reminded me of a not-so-distant memory that I was trying to

Are you happy now?(Random updates)

2010-01-14T15:57:00.008+08:00

Many things took place when I last blogged. I visit Silly at downunder and was fed too well. A very close friend of mine got married and was sort of involved in the event. It was a fun-filled day, like a bunch of kids doing the adult thing. Things are getting better both physically and mentally and many changes are taking place. I need to be more motivated to initiate more changes instead of

Almost time..

2010-01-03T14:17:00.003+08:00

... to a (not exactly) brand new beginning.It's kind of worrying as I don't know how things will work out but I'm sure I get all the support from everyone around me.It's weird how I was sad to leave home for this break, and now I hope not having to return to reality.Thank God for all the blessings so far. I am very, very grateful..Just some housekeeping, exactly how many of you (yes all 5 of you,

Happy New Year!

2009-12-31T21:19:00.002+08:00

Just a customary post. Thank God for everything.It's 12.15am, Melbourne time, which is 3 hours ahead of home. I miss home!Have a great new year folks!

Cousins unite

2009-12-30T20:42:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how fast we grow up.. now we are talking about jobs and housing and marriage and stuffs. Me no like to think about such things. I don't want to grow up. I don't want things to change. I just want to be carefree like I used to. Baaaaaa

It's burning!!

2009-12-30T12:11:00.003+08:00

Summer's here and so the shades and hat are my must-have items when heading out.Been pigging out everyday, i hope my jeans will still fit when I head home next week.Not much pictures taken since this is not the first time here anyway.Guess I should take a nap now.*yawns*

Destination next: Happiness

2009-12-27T20:25:00.002+08:00

Here I am, waiting for my flight in the lounge. Should I have another round of curry noodles? It smells gooodd.. Looking forward to more good food!

Could you..

2009-12-16T15:12:00.002+08:00

be just an escape from my history?If only I could choose what to erase from memory..baaaaa

Enlightenment is...

2009-12-13T12:37:00.002+08:00

...knowing you have recovered but will never be the same again.....knowing that it is ok to feel sad sometimes.....knowing that I have lots of love and is grateful Each day, I try to remain calm, remain hopeful, remain cheerful, remain strong...remain 'normal'.Each time I'm in a crowd, I try to be brave, be clear-minded, be less self-conscious...Love me.. talk to me..

The number gets bigger

2009-12-10T08:25:00.002+08:00

Reminds me of an old show, Blossom. She mopes on her birthday (as far as I could remember). Some people like to make a list of things they did/ accomplished the past year.So here it goes:- I got my heartbroken (It's not that bad just that I can't find a better word for it)- I got sick and went into coma (in case you were wondering what people get when they are in coma, it is very scary. It's

I am not alone

2009-12-08T16:41:00.006+08:00

It gets a little depressing when you seem like no one/ nothing can help you in getting out of this mental/psychology thing. I broke down again yesterday which totally shocked/ saddened the parents.I don't know, when I am 'relevant'/calm, it seems like the whole thing becomes ridiculous. Like what is so wrong with losing memory/ trembling/ depressed/ in a trance/ learning new things. Well, that is

Good Day!

2009-12-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

There are many things that made my day fantastic though I am in a trance.

To go or not to go

2009-12-01T17:21:00.002+08:00

I am still assessing myself whether I am ready to make a trip to Melbs to stay with Silly for a while.There are times trivia issues affect me, but I guess it gets better everyday.It's weird to say this, but I actually enjoy coming to work.

Fruitful Day

2009-11-21T16:45:00.002+08:00

Today is a fruitful day~ My cousin gets married today and it's good to see the rest of extended family. We are going for the dinner later. Woot~!

I am recovering well.

2009-11-17T22:09:00.004+08:00

According to the laws of nature, positive attract positive. I am recovering well, thus this positive thought will receive the same vibe and ultimately the thought will realise. so friends, believe that I am recovering well. Very very well. And I will excel and be better than who I used to be. I'll be off to KL on 21st. It is a smooth and relaxing journey. The return journey is the same as well.

Better...

2009-11-10T22:02:00.004+08:00

It will be better with each day passing. Nevermind the crashed desktop, nevermind the starting from scratch, nevermind, nevermind.I have appointments like:11th Nov- Spring cleaning12th Nov- Wedding dinner15th Nov- 'sisters' meeting21st Nov- Yun Lee's Wedding24th Nov- Return from KL First Coach and blood test at Novena25th Nov- 8 hour treatment at B1B3rd May- B1B10th May- B1BI guess everyone has

No good

2009-11-06T15:47:00.002+08:00

It will get better tomorrow.

50 1st dates...

2009-11-03T08:41:00.002+08:00

Now I know how they came up with the script.. Meh.Anyway, I am beginning to believe that this whole bad economy thing is a scam plotted by the government to make us work harder and longer. With 5 seconds, across 3 lanes of road, I actually spotted 4 BMWs. Right. What happened to Cherry QQ and Proton Sagas? or public transport? (which is also expensive, by the way)Now I am more depressed.

The Saturday..

2009-11-02T09:02:00.003+08:00

that Momo shamelessly insisted on going to Kim Gary and ignored my request to go White Dog Cafe and catch a movie. We went to Minds Cafe and had fun nonetheless. I think it's a big set up by them to laugh at me and remind me about the Colin incident. I so wanted to die. Woe is me! I seriously believe that when I said those words I was conscious but meant it as a joke. I think my friends lack some

Alter ego

2009-10-26T14:05:00.002+08:00

I am beginning to wonder what is the real me. Am I pretending to be who I am previously or am I pretending who I am now.The eye test today went well. Tomorrow to RAI. 11.35am.I've been sleeping for 8 hours everyday, and nothing beyond 8.This serves as my reminder for upcoming events.Meeting 'client' on Thur/ FriMeeting 'Angela Lim' on Saturday after Jovene Tan.Settle:School feesOutreach claims

Almost back..

2009-10-15T08:31:00.003+08:00

Most of my closest friends would have known that Lupus gave me a one-way ticket trip to Heaven's gates and I made a U-turn, if not for my family and friends who refused to let me give up. Thank you for all the cheers, the encouragement, the food, the magazines and not forgettting visiting me to hear myself hurl insults at you... I can never apologize and thank you enough.Of cos, my family is the

It's been...

2009-10-14T07:39:00.003+08:00

my closest friends and family would know what had happened.. it was a tiring episode, not forgetting an expensive lesson learnt. I cross path with death and back. so for now, my work is disrupted, school is put on hold, and am trying to piece the various of my life together again. I strive never to be warded again. oh well, time to prepare for my treatment. Brain Fry!!!

I am not lazy!!!

2009-09-08T11:58:00.002+08:00

I've been very tired lately. I need to sleep ALOT. I cannot walk for too far. Stairs can kill me. And it's not because I am lazy.And I apologize if I lose my patience. It's really a symtom for my condition. I am just sick. AGAIN. I am really not finding excuses.Anyway I realise that after a long period of time being sick and alone and sleepy, I tend to like to talk. Like verbal diarrhea. And

I cannot believe myself.

2009-08-28T16:24:00.003+08:00

I slept from 6.30pm to 7.00am yesterday. I just changed into my pyjamas and concuss in bed. That's how sleepy I was. Meh.In other news, there is a small sale at crocs, you can also check out the website but limted range tho. School's started and I just did a 15% worth of presentation. Hope I did it right tho. My lessons are from Mon to Wed, 6.30 to 9.30. Unless you want to pick me up for supper

Enlightenment is...

2009-08-24T16:22:00.003+08:00

waking up one morning accepting things will never be the same ..no longer checking the phone for messages..accepting that things will have to end anyway...knowing it's time to move on...For what is worth, you made me happy and blissful; albeit for a short time.Baby, thank you very much, really.Still friends, I suppose?

The relatively long hiatus

2009-08-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

It's been 3 weeks since I last blogged and that's how long I've been sick. Many unpleasant at work, health and relationship. I guess I just have to be thankful that I managed to retain my job and health.I guess I have lost you, haven't I? You won't there anymore, would you?Oh well, I think I've tried my best..

How's everybodeh?

2009-07-29T08:29:00.002+08:00

I've been very absent-minded lately as a result, I think I lost a couple of things at the hotel:My phone chargerDS LiteMeh. I hope I've just misplaced it somewhere at home and not lost them.Sadness.Other than that, life's been good. I guess blissful is the word.

I heart 孙燕姿!

2009-07-12T12:16:00.004+08:00

It was a great concert! Thanks for so much entertainment. Though the glammed-up looks needs a little getting used to. Huiz and I had a great time screaming nonetheless. The only disappointment is that the concert started late (Singaporeans should learn to be more punctual, this is not a wedding dinner!!) and ended rather early. Miss Tan was rambling on and on about dimming the lights for the 1st

Pardon Me..

2009-06-28T20:27:00.003+08:00

I am happy. I truly am. But I can't help asking where I stand.I can't help worrying when this ride will end.I'm afraid things will simply slip away like sand.I am happy. I truly am.

A world away..

2009-06-26T00:26:00.001+08:00

It's just 4 hours drive and I seem a world apart from you...I can't wait to be home again.. after a durian chendol.

I miss Bangkok...

2009-06-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

I want to go Bangkok!!!!

You could but you wouldn't...

2009-06-14T00:12:00.022+08:00

Things are always ok until the red button is pushed and the recurring topic surfaces. I should be getting used to your constant reminders of how I will always be on your outside pretty soon. I'm not supposed to feel the hurt, it's afterall, my choice when the cards were laid right in front of me. There are some things that I should never ask when I don't know if I am ready for the answers. Some

For Donut

2009-06-09T08:26:00.002+08:00

I paktor-ed with Donut yesterday at JP and told her a hilarious story of how someone had to trudge across the track barefoot. And she requested for the picture. So here it is my dear Donut. I hope it makes you day. I colored my hair over the weekend and I think I should be more clear about what I want the next time I do it again. While it is not exactly disastrous, the Muse was nice enough to say

生日快乐！

2009-06-06T10:29:00.006+08:00

KL-Aug 2002Happy Birthday to one of my dearest friends who turns 2@ today!Though we have entered a different stage in life and we might not be catching up as often as we wish to, I know we will always be there for each other.Thank you for being a great friend, thank you for all the times you stood by me, whether I was right or wrong. (This is getting mushy and not quite our style. hurhur)Anyway,

I love you, man

2009-06-04T10:49:00.002+08:00

My Chinese sister 赵笨(well actually that's not her real name) brought me to the movies last night to watch I love you Man. There was a write-up on this movie in TIME magazine a few months back but I didn't think much of it; since there was no big cast or cute lead. Anyhoos, since it's a free movie and I don't mind watching it, I tagged along.It is freaking hilarious. Go catch it if you can!In

To a dear friend..

2009-06-02T22:26:00.004+08:00

If I've unknowingly become your source of unhappiness, I would really like to know how to make things the way they were again. You are not good at acting and your displeasure is weaved all over your actions and words. If it's me, I am really sorry ok.. In case I am over-sensitive and it's not me, please share your unhappiness with me. I am just a phonecall away.

Happy Birthday!

2009-06-01T20:56:00.004+08:00

To the only man in the world who will love me unconditionally (and I don't mean Wenwei, who happens to have the same birthday). Happy birthday to the man who gave up smoking cos' I was asthmatic, bought me the life-sized doll despite his wife's extreme displeasure(and fear), gave me freedom and support even when he has doubts.Happy birthday Daddy!Oh and by the way, Happy birthday Wenwei aka THE

When things hit rock bottom...

2009-05-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

It can only get better.I have faith. So must you.

Things will be fine if it's right...

2009-05-27T19:07:00.013+08:00

The past week had been a roller coaster ride. The high times were always followed by the very low. I think I enjoy hovering around the danger zone. I've decided to just chill and see where the ride leads to. No commitments, no obligations, no expectations. Let's just chill.Work has been okaee. I made an overnight trip to KL for work and managed to meet up with the family. My watermelon boy is sho

Fall to pieces

2009-05-22T08:31:00.004+08:00

我发现最大的失败，不是比不上对手，而是输给了自己。I'm sorry if I am behaving like a spoilt brat who can't get her toy. I just thought somethings are worth fighting for.

Opportunity cost

2009-05-17T14:24:00.004+08:00

Patrick Star turns into a stone! says:ask me if i wan to buy coachPatrick Star turns into a stone! says:arggggh!!!lz says:wahlz says:ermlz says:no need so many bagslz says:u buy the eye cream more worthPatrick Star turns into a stone! says:lz says:u can buy like 20 eye creamlz says:10 yr supply (if u 6 mth use finish 1)Patrick Star turns into a stone! says:hahahahahahahahahahahaPatrick Star turns

Rewind & Erase

2009-05-16T18:52:00.014+08:00

The pair of Angels on my back failed to remind me how scary things can be if I ever get myself into another complicating situation like this again. There isn't enough RAM on my brain to process all the things happening to the heart recently. I think the brain got fried and I have once again managed to mess things up at 5.30am on a supposedly beautiful Saturday morning.Bumming around in bed the

Mindfuck

2009-05-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

I have a bad habit of allowing people to screw my mind upside-down and to make things worse, I actually indulge in it. Simply, I have the worsest habit of mindfucking myself. Which is what happened today, and probably tomorrow, and probably the next few weeks to come, depending how merciful the 'people' is to me and how merciful I am to myself.Some people just never learn. CMI!I cab't believe I

Happy Birthday!

2009-05-12T22:42:00.005+08:00

It's someone's birthday but I just cannot remember who. So whoever you are, Happy Birthday yeah! (and you can drop me a note to say is you). HUR HUR.In other news, I keep sending messages to wrong people. Horrigible!!!!I must be getting stale. MEH.

Eventful weekend

2009-05-11T22:09:00.013+08:00

My Donut!! It was Donut's last day as a temp at the office and we decided to have a nice farewell for her at Sunset way. We went for steamboat and for the 2nd time in a row, I lausai-ed! I never want to eat there EVER again! NABEH. Vain Ah Boy 干妈 and her real son, Vain Ah Boy. 我爱的人 and LZAfterwhich we headed for:ICE CREAM!!! Thanks to 干妈 for her treat! Yummilicious~Then on Saturday, Donut and

Just my luck?

2009-05-09T23:39:00.000+08:00

Patrick Starr. Shlomo aykano itayk? says:ah boy!terence. says:hey hey!Patrick Starr. Shlomo aykano itayk? says:did u lausai last night?terence. says:nopeterence. says:but dis morning i had just a businessterence. says:hahahaterence. says:heard from ERin u and chris had lausaiPatrick Starr. Shlomo aykano itayk? says:me n my boyfren both had diarrheaPatrick Starr. Shlomo aykano itayk? says:ya